It’s Wednesday again! (I just said wed nes day while spelling that because doesn’t everybody!)
I only have 3 new food pictures from the past week but they are all quite delicious running fuel! Something has been bothering me lately and I can’t seem to escape it. I will try to express it in words and see if anybody can help. Put simply it’s just that my ED still haunts me, pictures, certain foods, certain places. It’s not like I break down or anything it just crowds my mind with bad times of my life when I need to be focusing on other more important things now. More on that soon!
This is just an Eggo with butter and syrup. It was my go-to elementary breakfast and it is just a great combination! (I had more than this for breakfast though!!)
This was a dessert pizza with Nutella and banana and homemade crust. I made it with the girl after we made a real pizza. It was exponentially better than a delivery pizza crust!
This picture is blurry because I took it covertly after a 7 mile run this weekend while I was in Michigan. I had a crepe before but after had 2 crepes, English muffin, apple and peanut butter on it all. I didn’t get yogurt all weekend which is uncommon for me!!
Well that’s it for this week! If anybody has any ideas for that problem I would love help! Comment or email me!
March 14, 2013 at 3:21 am
Alek,
I am so IMPRESSED with you dude. I am old enough to be your mom, in fact my oldest son is turning 14 in May, SCARY!!! BUT let me talk to you like a friend now. You are so brave. You are sooooo brave!!
I stopped by your blog, started reading it and browsing and not only realized how young you are, but a boy too. I know I’m not the first to admit, but I never thought of boys as having ED…. but obviously it’s possible, and probably much more common than I know. Only problem is nobody talks about it. You did, and are, and for that I commend you!!
I have always been so protecting when it comes to my kids, and the way they view themselves. I always try my hardest to make sure they don’t look up to the wrong role models, and have always taught them to eat healthy. I’ve done pretty good, I think. My kids know organic, they don’t drink soda, or eat fast food. They have been exposed to lots of cuisines, and they love their veggies.
Only problem is, that I’m not the best role model either for them. My body is certainly not an example of health! After 3 kids, and not working out, and turning 30, I guess I shouldn’t be too surprised, but I struggle too. Just in a very different way than you.
I think that we will always have reminders of the past, when it comes to food, or things we’ve done, or people we date, etc. That is life, and hopefully we can learn from it, and be better for it. You have already come so far. I have yet to get even close to how far you’ve come. I know it wasn’t easy for you, but you DID IT!!!
I have no idea if you had lots of support, or if you were struggling mostly alone. Either way, you made it happen, and that is something called WILL POWER…. and most people your age, well they lack it, big time.
You can apply that to every aspect of your life Alek, and just know that every day you are going to make choices, face struggles, and be reminded of the good times, or the bad times, and be tempted either way. Try your best to decide what is CRUCIAL to you, and what you will not comprimise on. Once you make it clear to yourself that you will NEVER do something again, or you MUST continue to do another, then keep repeating it to yourself. Visualize it, and accept it. The urges, will go away eventually, and you will look back, always, you will always remember the struggle, but you will know it is behind you. Not something you ever have to worry about again.
Now let me tell you this too, as you get older TRUST me when I say, women love men to have a little meat on their body as well. Just like men say they want their women to have some curves, etc. You look GREAT now that you’ve put on some weight, and I know you will continue to look better as you grow, and mature into a young man. You seriously look healthy, your face looks healthy, you look happy, you still have a TOTAL six pack, hello, and work out the rest of your body… your legs… guys should not have chicken legs, and your arms, because every girl wants strong arms holding her.
Keep it up sweetie, you are doing GREAT!!! I wish I could hug you, and fix you a big huge meal to eat right now. I am so happy I “met” you, and while I may not be your age. I am right there with you, cheering you on.
Plus I love that you have no interest in drugs and alcohol… again, scary to think that is what my son is going to start experiencing soon, as he starts high school next year. I’m scared…. and can only hope all my talks with him will get him through it.
This was the longest comment ever, but I just had to talk to you my dear. I wish there were more kids focusing on all the good stuff like you, instead of, well you know what they focus on…. sad… really sad.
If you ever want to talk, let me know, and I think I will even let me son check out your blog. Maybe you can inspire him to eat even healthier too.
So glad I stopped by!
P.s. After coming back from an extended blogging break, I’ve started a 40 day challenge to get HEALTHY by my birthday. If you get a chance to check it out, I could sure use the support!
Hugs, Bella
Bella’s 40 Day Challenge
March 15, 2013 at 11:30 am
WOW!
I don’t know where to start but thank you! I try tell myself that and remember how much I’ve done whenever I doubt myself.
It is a forgotten disorder for guys. People thing guys are all the same and we are strong and we would never have eating disorders. ED’s are actually as common in guys as they are in girls. They aren’t usually as bad because guys don’t vocalize it and make it blatantly obvious. Guys can have close to 5% fat and look good (if he has muscles) or great but a girl is like that it looks unnaturally skinny usually. It’s almost sports that cause guys to develop them. Sports like football, wrestling, running and really all sports require a specific body to really excel. Guys just strive for that body but in the process it messes with your brain. You launch the propaganda against yourself and brainwash yourself.
It was difficult to come out publicly and admit it BUT it was probably the best thing I have done (and met missfitbritt look up her blog!!) People online have given me alot of support but I didn’t get any local support. It’s not like it was a secret I had an ED but I think my parents didn’t want to discuss it because obviously you never want to admit your oldest SON has an eating disorder. They bought me the foods I wanted during and after. I am a little mad they didn’t stop it before it got so bad but at less i made I out.
That is good you try to eat healthy! My family never really did. I hated vegetables until I found out how low cal they were and kind of forced myself to like them. I am happy I did now but it is very sick to think I did that.
The important thing is that you will admit that! Doing what you do is the best thing you can do! Get support and go for it! Make your boys proud! It is very brave of you to put those pictures online like you did! You can also join a diet bet I don’t know if you have seen those?
I do have willpower but sadly it worked against me for too long. It has only been working for about a half a year to help me. I think I have the willpower to resist any drugs or alcohol offered to me and try to stay away from it to begin with.
I know that I look better now than I did but I know I could look even better! I know I don’t have a six pack any more and I don’t like it. I used to show off, now my mom says I lost it. I have good strong running legs. But I have no arms. I don’t have anywhere or anybody to lift with so I have never got to train them besides tennis. I have big pecs because all the push-ups I do but I couldn’t actually bench much.
Happy you stopped by and I “met” to you too!! Your comment really did help! In sorry I didn’t reply yesterday but comments like this are what make all the work worth it! I checked out your blog and hope your doing well! I’d be happy to email if you want!
I’m not actually sure if any teenage guys have actually seen the blog. I haven’t ever gotten comments from them if they have. I am very glad nobody except some girls from here have seen the blog! Surprisingly girls here haven’t said anything negative but I think it has changed there view of me probably!:(
Hah I reply book length replies to book length comments!
March 15, 2013 at 1:42 pm
Wow, that dessert pizza looks awesome
. I made some before, but it was the all-chocolate ones. Did it for Easter, swirling different chocolates together to make it look cool. We topped them with marshmallows, Smarties, Reeses Pieces and raisins, stuff like that. I do NOT recommend it 
toooo sweeeet!! I like your idea a lot more, especially with the banana and Nutella!!
With getting over the ED thoughts, I found that what really helped me was to learn about health and real nutrition, learn what is good for my body, and why what I was doing before, was so bad. It really opens your eyes to see what you’ve been doing. To be honest, juicing helped me SO MUCH, but people are sick of hearing that from me now, so I’ll leave it at that..
You are looking so much healthier every time you post self-pictures
you are such an inspiration, Alek. And so brave. I’m going to continue reading your blog 
thank you.
March 23, 2013 at 6:02 pm
Hey, thanks for the like on our post! I dropped by to see what you eat for running fuel. Looks like the breakfast of champions.
ED aside, I want to give you props for cooking as a 15-year old male. You will no doubt be fantastic at it by the time you start looking for a mate, and then your romantic interests will be tripping over themselves for you.
March 23, 2013 at 6:24 pm
Your welcome!
If you really want to see my cooking look at this weeks WIAW! This one is rather embarrassing!